
I’ve been through my own version of this. I spent 14 years in tech, moving from recruitment into leadership roles, eventually becoming Head of DevOps.
From the outside, it looked like a perfectly respectable career. And for a while, it was. For years, I played that game too: perform competence, survive the week, collect the paycheck, tell yourself it will all make sense later.
At some point, the question becomes unavoidable: for what, exactly?
Because career is not some unfortunate side quest you tolerate in exchange for living later. It shapes you. Your environment shapes you. The work you do shapes you. The compromises you make shape you. Because this is your life. A significant part of it. And if it starts feeling alien, something needs to change. Read more...
By all logical standards, things are fine. So why am I not?
AI. Politics. Layoffs. The world is unstable. I’ll think about my life later. Until later becomes crisis.
Asking ChatGPT what to do. Feeling briefly reassured. Doing absolutely nothing differently.
A holiday. A reset. New perspective. Then, somehow, the exact same life.
Who do I think I am? Maybe I should just be grateful and stop overcomplicating things.
That it is really helps to reduce the noise and hear yourself, your own voice that we all lost in endless LinkedIn fake interactions
I realized that probably before I become a big boss I should clearly define for myself what kind of boss I want to be. And that I probably don't want it personally
Letting go of the need for my manager’s approval gave me the clarity to evaluate the situation objectively and move forward.
I heard the feedback, made a plan, and said out loud what I actually want.
That it is really helps to reduce the noise and hear yourself, your own voice that we all lost in endless LinkedIn fake interactions
I realized that probably before I become a big boss I should clearly define for myself what kind of boss I want to be. And that I probably don't want it personally
Letting go of the need for my manager’s approval gave me the clarity to evaluate the situation objectively and move forward.
I heard the feedback, made a plan, and said out loud what I actually want.
That it is really helps to reduce the noise and hear yourself, your own voice that we all lost in endless LinkedIn fake interactions
I realized that probably before I become a big boss I should clearly define for myself what kind of boss I want to be. And that I probably don't want it personally
Letting go of the need for my manager’s approval gave me the clarity to evaluate the situation objectively and move forward.
I heard the feedback, made a plan, and said out loud what I actually want.
That it is really helps to reduce the noise and hear yourself, your own voice that we all lost in endless LinkedIn fake interactions
I realized that probably before I become a big boss I should clearly define for myself what kind of boss I want to be. And that I probably don't want it personally
Letting go of the need for my manager’s approval gave me the clarity to evaluate the situation objectively and move forward.
I heard the feedback, made a plan, and said out loud what I actually want.
I realized how much the changes at work had unsettled me and affected my motivation. Our conversation helped me calm down and stop thinking of missed opportunities
I realized recently that I was working against myself and my strengths. I had decided my characteristics were defects and were there to sabotage me <...> however if flipped and looked at through a positive light, they could be seen as strengths too
(I've learned) Strengths I didn't know I had. Dismantled uncertain and vague fears onto manageable pieces, sorted them so that I could see what I can influence and what I can not.
I don't know what you've done but I like my job again
I realized how much the changes at work had unsettled me and affected my motivation. Our conversation helped me calm down and stop thinking of missed opportunities
I realized recently that I was working against myself and my strengths. I had decided my characteristics were defects and were there to sabotage me <...> however if flipped and looked at through a positive light, they could be seen as strengths too
(I've learned) Strengths I didn't know I had. Dismantled uncertain and vague fears onto manageable pieces, sorted them so that I could see what I can influence and what I can not.
I don't know what you've done but I like my job again
I realized how much the changes at work had unsettled me and affected my motivation. Our conversation helped me calm down and stop thinking of missed opportunities
I realized recently that I was working against myself and my strengths. I had decided my characteristics were defects and were there to sabotage me <...> however if flipped and looked at through a positive light, they could be seen as strengths too
(I've learned) Strengths I didn't know I had. Dismantled uncertain and vague fears onto manageable pieces, sorted them so that I could see what I can influence and what I can not.
I don't know what you've done but I like my job again
I realized how much the changes at work had unsettled me and affected my motivation. Our conversation helped me calm down and stop thinking of missed opportunities
I realized recently that I was working against myself and my strengths. I had decided my characteristics were defects and were there to sabotage me <...> however if flipped and looked at through a positive light, they could be seen as strengths too
(I've learned) Strengths I didn't know I had. Dismantled uncertain and vague fears onto manageable pieces, sorted them so that I could see what I can influence and what I can not.
I don't know what you've done but I like my job again
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